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Guess Whos Back

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:05:14 GMT

yea yea yea, so i coppied off amber and megan but there right dude, and the trusth is it used to bethat you could put any thing in here and it was not to be worried about, then it go currupted and turned to drama central, so we all abandoned but didnt delete our live/dead journals and now myspace is currupt but too important to abandon so now we've come back to what makes sence, our roots that is this system now clean a dpurged of drama at least in our worlds and at least for a lil while so for now VIVA lA LIVE/DEAD JOURNALS.

Who Rememberes This, And What It Meant

Jay DeFizzzle

Long Night, Dum Day

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 17:55:49 GMT

Fuckin'ay Last night was pretty cool but today thus far sucked massive ass...

Yesterday i fell alseep for a total of 45 mins or less, i was woken up by my cell phone alarm, and there was one bobby richards chillin there like wakey wakey eggs and bakey and then jax showed up so we could go get our checks and so we did and i got a decent check it was like 421$ but let me remind you dead thats only for 2 fuckin weeks THATS TERRIBLE

i got a new job interview on mon day for a job makin 12$ hourly just sittin in a booth and driving a golf cart around fixing light bulbs LOL

but any ways we cashed em, and then we went and picked up MR.UNO (Matt Martin). got some fuckin subway and then it was off to practice which fuckin sucked for like 2 hours because we couldnt find our drummer, and it turns out that because his phone got dropped in a pool and he couldnt answere it lol. man if it isnt one thing its another.

After practice we stopped back at my house i fought with my parents as usual then we went out to big boys ate then threw a giant super bouncy ball around and i got so fuckin tired that i was falling asleep standing up lol so they took me home and i had to clean the kitechen fought with them some more passed out and now im awake and i fought with them some more lol it never ends so im gonna be here for the remainder of the day because my aunts in town so yea then hopfully i can work in some ass from sarah of course lol.

Welp Peace Out Dead

(((The Jay Stands For Jizz'M)))

WOW

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 10:04:42 GMT

HOLY SHIT ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I DID ANY THING IN THIS MAYBEE I STILL WILL WHO KNOWS

Jay

Another Day Another Struggle

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 03:11:46 GMT

Well another day goes by and another 24 hours of nothing but non stop stress,

As usual i get up with no sleep and a head ach from lack of sleep from the night before and o got in the shower and got out in just enough time to run around the house like a chicken with its head cutt off to get ready so that mike doesnt bitch me out for making him late and on top of it he comes in and tell me that if hes late a again hes suspended so now i have to get up even earlier now which is just horrible i had a hard day at school and probly failed my math test because the stupid play on friday kept us too long so that means that the make up test is much HARDER but im doing good enough that it shouldnt kill me at least i hope not, then i get out of fifth block and waited for sarah till 3:15, and it starts pouring raint like hard so i said fuck it and started walking low and behold after i start walking there she shows up at the school and waits for a fucking half hour meets me at al most eureka im like wtf but w/e we sit watch tv ate food had sex and now i will talk to her take a show go to beed or try any way and repeat process tomorrow YAY!!!!

FUCK LIFE

|∙~SoX~∙|

FUCK RICK JAMES BIATCH

today another day

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 09:41:50 GMT

well i just had a normal day to day nothing specail just sat around getting better from this Cunt Cold but yea me and sarah just sat and watched movies and fucked around n shit and yea life is just such a whore i dunno things just have been at there utter most extream latly i swear if i had time in the world i would type everything that happend but lets just say its not worth it because everythings back to hunky fuckin dory , but yea its my dad 39th b-day and i get to work 6 till fucking invintory which could mean any time at night that were finished but w/e fuck it money right and hey guess what every one my new flaming little shit or should i say me and sarahs relationship is at arecord of one year one tuesday yea we made it this far im suprized im not positivily godam fucking dilerious yet but hey its love what can you do!! WEEE ne ways ita 4 sumthin in the morning and im tired good night

|~∙SoX∙~|

IM RICK JAMES BIATCH!!!

and some words for those it relates to

CoC - Shelter

Once in awhile you'd be better listening to the fools for a change
I can see it in your eyes, it's the one who's not like you, you despise
I'm no different than you, it's just that I do whatever I want to
that's what sets us apart, I was free from the start, now you're leaving

tell me whose heart is bleeding
so once in awhile you'd be better listening to the fools for a change

What comes around follows and the truth becomes harder to swallow
so bang bang they shoot you down, no one says a word as your body hits the ground
oh pick her up and put her down the crowd screams aloud she's not breathing
and the only hand that reaches is the one alone you've been cheating my friend

tell me whose heart is bleeding again
so once in awhile you'd be better listening to the fools for a change
once in awhile you'd be better listening to the fools for a change

Long Time No Journal

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 05:42:13 GMT

Well whats up Live its been a long as time i almost fully forgot about you but i think i might actually start writing in this dam thing again, yea i been all kinds of busy between school, 5th block rotc, working my ass off, block buster, sarah and Bloodwork i have had no time for much of any thing but i guess thats what life is when you fuck off for so many years right? well thats cool any ways because now at least im getting off my ass and doing something with my life lol

so yea whats new, well yea i got a job,me and sarah are doing just incretable i mean i couldnt be happier we have every thing, life with her is what life should be i mean look at it like this the only other relationship i have to look at for an example is amber and mines relationship and so far me and sarah are off the scale compared to me and amber i mean march 1st is one year and we havent really fought but a hand full of times worked out all kinks in one and other and are still going strong, and fucking like rabbits still might i add.(yea i know some things just never change right?) Blood work is doing awsome were fucking tearing shit up man the new songs were writing The Killing Fields and yeaits coiming out like "The Black Lamb of Chimaira Breed" we just played a show for the first time in a few months and elt me tellyou it felt good to be up there with those guys again and we owned it was nice we played a couple new tracks for the crowd and they loved it we played Driving in Darkness, Ounce, and The newest of new not even done yet badass monther fucking SAW yes ladies and gentle men the song made from the fucked up ass awsome movie!!!!and more songs have been written and just let me tell you this new album aint nothing to fuck with its pure straight up cause and effect Cause: us seeing what only fallen sounded like comapred to what we are now, Effect: being what has come out of our fucking built up minds were ready to go man, and you'll be able to see just what i mean if you show up to St.Andrews March 26th 12 bucks and your in to see us mindrought and the walking dead and more so yea check it out.

But yea i hope every one goes man we need ya'll support but yea im gonna go up date the band journal with trhat shit i just told ya'll and yea i'll be back hopefully on a regular basis peace

|~∙SoX∙~|

IM RICK JAMES BIATCH

To:The Greatest Man In Metal History

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 21:58:54 GMT

We are gatherd here to day to mourn the loss of this mystery,
as we are are here in the saddest day in American Metal history.
one of historys greatest men were taken from us last night,
As Nathan Gale shot dime bag five times right b 4 the show he died.
i'll never forget what his talent has ment in his 25 years of playing,
and any Real pantera fan knows exactly what im saying.
and vinny i hope that you'll be ok with the loss of your brother and all, with seriousness i promise you this the memory will never fall.
this day will never be forgotten, or every memory ive had,
with horns in the air and a stone clenched fist...

(A Moment Of Silence)

Rest In Peace Dime Bag

Campin and Effect

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 16:32:02 GMT

Sup live,
well i went campin for 4 days and it was probly the greatest thing i have ever done in my life thus far i realized so much while i was there and had so much time to think about life, being there for 4 days like that and being gone from here all that time put me in perspective to realize that i need to get the fuck away from here, because walking back in to this place showed me just what it is that i hate about this place nothing here ever changes it stays in this on going ever depressive existance where the same problems co-exist over and over again and my fucking parents live in the vicious circle of fighting, money problems, lack of trust, falling marrige, her health, his massive addiction to gambling, and that just naming a few things, I've realized that ok there was this one time sarah was over now this girl is such a pure soul and her parents dont fight and yes i know sounds hard to believe but its totaly true they dont fight and even if they did its nothing like my parents, well she was here and me and my mom were fighting real bad about something now its the normal thing to me that all we do is fight so nothing new right well i happen to look over and Poor Sarah is in tears scared to death to see me act that way and how we are because she never sees that side of me she always sees this nice passive person, thats sickneing that a person on the outside sees what goes on in our "happy lil family" and it makes her cry and scared, and thats so fucked up that my fucked up sick existance of life is normal for me to act that way and that hurts me so bad to see that, and just everything latly has put me in such a different perspective and i swear while this last year here in school im gonna look for a place to go as soon as im done with school im the fuck out of here because i cant live like this any more and i swear to god if it kills me i will do everything my father never did for me i will finish school i will go to college, i will do something with my life and once i have achived that me and sarah will marry and start a family but i will not allow my self to punish her for my fucked misteaks and untill i fix them, such dreams will have to wait
i dont know somebody tell me what they think maybee give me some advice or something i'll take it all right now

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IM RICK JEMES BIATCH!!!

yea ok so i needed to post

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 06:18:18 GMT

sorry man i know whats the point of this dam thing ne way right i never use it well i guess to have somewhere else to bitch at but yea the wifes doing good im doing good the bands doin good and everything else umm yea ok well im out peace

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hA IM HERE

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 04:57:55 GMT

well im chillin at tj's house sry i havnt been on here to do shit latly but i been grounded and no i still havnt found a fucking job yet and yes it fucking blows if ne body knows of ne thing please hooky a niggy up ok sank you im out

|~•SoX•~|

Tech Fest Niggies

Sun, 30 May 2004 13:53:27 GMT

hell yea buddy

tech fest was the shiznit o bam snip snap sac for real man i got drunk as fuck hung out with all the ppl i miss so very badly and i thnk im fully back now the crew seems somewhat resotred and im so happy to be back with the ppl i love so much, kat ally ed kirby megan jason ang cint toast B and yes even amber.

we all have had a long time to find eachother and our selfs which is what we all did and were all ebtter ppl because of it and i swear if it ever goes back to the way it was i'll kill my self and everyone befor me

but yea today im gonna hang with Ally|Kat till about 6/6:30 and then im comeing back here so i can see my bebez who man o fucking man do i miss i aint seem her all day yesterday and untill 7 tonight but its cool i just want her back in my arms well ya'll im off to update the band journal Peaces

|~•SoX•~|

chillin here no school

Mon, 10 May 2004 15:51:54 GMT

Hell yea niggy no school for me to day!!!

Yea last night my punk ass good for nothing father stolls in the house (after not being here all day on mothers day) at 11:40 at night, and im not in bed yet ebcause we had to order out and i had to go get everything because his ass didnt leave ne money here so i had to use a credit card, so iw as jut sitting down to eat and he coems in all like why are you away still what the fucks going on here but mom (who btw is all ready furious with him) starts screaming at him " Shut the fuck up do not say a mother fucking word to ruin the rest of this night you have already ruined enough of my whole day now shut the fuck up!" well you should already know he wasnt gonna stop there and it blew up soem more n shit as it sould they start fighting and i didnt get to bed till about 3 finally so i woke up this morning dead ass tired my moms like you can stay home you poor thing just dont sleep in too late and get your make up work ok mom !! love you good night went back to sleep and here i am.

on another note: im sorry anne amber and megan for the fact that all i ever seem to talk about is my sex life, i guess it can get really tiring to hear but you all gotta remember, especailly you amber, that i have a serious mental problem and sex is like one of the most important things in my life i have to have it or i dont function correctly i become a real big ass hole and i cannot control this its not my fault really so when im getting it non stop like this im extreamly happy and want to talk about it and since i know its kinda annoying and disrespectfull to tell everyones ears about it i choose to write about it in my journals its a release for me so i mean its not intentional but this way im not telling every ones about it so you must understand that. but yea sry again well all im going to write in my other journal about how i aint got laid in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!

life what a beautiful thing

Fri, 07 May 2004 23:31:50 GMT

So here i been sitting for the past few hours all happy n stuff because life is going 100% wonderful for me, i couldnt be happier i havnt been happier, im in love like i have never been, and thats really hard to live with, every moment of every day i feel like im cheating on amber i feel like im betraying her tho i cannot help it its how things have became its not my fault that sarahs so fucking wonderful, she does everything for me, shes fun and the girls like the femail verson of me we have everythng in common we talk non stop about everything and then some, and the doctors may have found a cure for my moms illness which is what has gotten me into this high that is florishing every state of my being, not to mention the band is better than ever we got five members not yes that means a Second guitarist Matt Martin, AKA Nickel Bag, ona count of his ability to play every pantera song on guitar solos and all, on top of that comes the cherry we goe in to the studio, May 22!!
with 40 hours of time do write and record with that amazing

but the best thing of all is that i have had non stop sex every day three times a day for like the passed month in ahalf she likes it as much as me we make love non stop and if you have never made love omg you have to because making love is the most spiritual thing i have ever expierianced, its so real and so heavinly, like your floating in mid air its truly amazing, but yes i have to leave now cheack the bands info and everything you need to know right here,

http://www.soledistraction.741.com
Left side every one

Jay

Holy Fuck Monkey Shit Sticks!!!!

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 05:56:18 GMT

First and for most Sry i aint been here in a while,
i been kinda busy n shit plus u aint had much to right about, but i do now first off me and sara are doing so fucking good im kinda worried about helping her get a friendship back with her ex but hey if we brake up it was fun while it lasted, were doing x-elent i mean were so perfect for one another but there are a few things missing that if this lasts will come over time, my "Broken Home" has become a battle ground of dirt now me and my dad are not even a thin line there is no line left i have pure hatred for that man there nothing but aching pain for that man we got in to a fist fight the other night and i was kicked out for the night and he left for like three days my mo let me back in and we drank jack all night hes home now and i aint ready hear him breath yet i still taunt my self with hopes of his death and yes i know that sounds really fucked up (heh) but you all have no clue what its like living with this man and if i had time and patentnts which as of right now and i'll get to why in a min i would tell the whole story but i dont give a fuck ne more ya know ok now on to the big shit:

FUCK YEA MOTHER FUCKER i just saw 40 below summer (yuk) chimaira (ouch) Fear factory (fuck yea) and ... **sighs** slipknot ( wtf happend man) ya know what the fuck did happen toy ou guys i seen you three other time and all three times you guy fucking rocked out asses off but this new shit fucking sucks ass man chimairas new one gonna be fucking awsome mudvaynes new one is awsome fear factorys new one is there best even static-X's new one was better than slipknots new shit it fucking blows i could even bob my head for it i mean why but that be sides the fact that to night i pit so hard that im like dead as well of watching a woman die in front of my very eyes to night which i dont have ne thing in me to talk about right now needless to say it really fucked me up man but yea umm too night was one of the best concerts i have ever been too even tho i was half dead the whole show but yea im gonna go correct my typos copy and paist this in all the journals i have and go die so too all who was there fuck yea

\m/ )0_o( ..I.

xSoXx

I'm Grrrreat!!! throws up a finger

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 20:20:50 GMT

To Day Was Fucking Awsome:

well man today was great best school day i have ever had picture this.. ok your walkin to your bus who ever you are and you meet up with a friend trying to light there roach so you assit them and take a hit While at it and only one hit makes you so high that you cant see straight and then you end up having to run to the bus so you do and you get to school all blown back from just one hit of this bomb ass weed, and ur g/f of course is no where to be found so you have to ride the voc. buss all alone again but to your suprize when you get off there she is lookin all cute in her beanie n shit askes you where you wanna go (*SCORE*) so we stall for abit to wait for her mom to go to work which btw i met her yesterday and it went awsome her moms the shit a lil too conservative but hey what do ya do when she gets drunk and dances on tables lol. ne ways we get there and we start fucking like no other man and i almost lost a nother condom in her when i was hitting it from the back
but it was all good because we changed to another one and wen back to it we fucked only for 20 mins but dude it was the longest twenty mins of my life she stops and goes my god its only been twenty mins im like what! man it was awsome but we was tired so we quit after that in time for the last half hour of voc. and went back to tell every one about it man shes great i swear this is (some of) the best three weeks of my life. she brags more about our sex then i dolol its so awsome well shes coming over for round 2 be for work Ding Ding Ding!! GAME ON YEAYA

IM RICK JAMES BIATCH

Another rough weekend...

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 02:15:08 GMT

Well fri day was cool for starters,
boo came over b 4 work and seen me and we chilled and talked for a bit about how sunday was gonna go.

Saturday was even better,
me jay boo and crystal all went and seen dawn of the muhfuckin dead and it was fucking sweet but then i went home and boo and crystal came with jay left and we all hung out in my room all night (raises eyes brows) (jk nothing happend)

sunday was the best and worst night,
it al started my dad took me up to the mall to take back my money for my broke ass cd player and i ran in to jeremy and all his bros, and the me and jason left and went to treses for a few and left there cam back to my house and ate a bad ass pizza, then MY PARENTS LEFT TO GO TO THE HOTEL FOR THE NIGHT!! sara came over after work we went in my room and ya know fucked for i think 2 in ahalf hours non stop but dude it sucked i couldnt get hard at first i was hard all the time b 4 that then we got naked and ready tog o and i go limp for almost ten mins. but i got in to gear lol (man that sucked)
then we going at it and her nipple ring catches mine and ripps mine out dude that fuckin hurt and then the worst of it all
the condom came out and got stuck in side her and i blew twice but lucky us she went and got the 72 hour pill so i just hope things are ok but as for that i im gonna go to bed check the band journal for that info...

http://www.deadjournal.com/users/soledistraction

well looky here im posting an entry

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 03:04:02 GMT

sup ya'll not shit here just chillin sara just left me her jay and crystal went to see dawn of the dead it was fucking sweet shit thats teh best horror movie i have ever seen the acting even sucked i love it and dude whats the fuck was up with the fat grandma look alike whoa man too rich for my blood well we would have had practice tomorrow but mikes gotta work but that cool because my parents are leaving for another hotelthing yeaya!!! house all to me and sara well for two hrs ne way shes gotta work till 5 but shes gonna say till close so thats he can get longer but two hrs is cool im gonna have her watch 28 days later because shes never seen it and the worst part is shes never seen all the good shit shes never seen resident eivil never seen blade never seen house on haunted hill never seen like half the good shit but thatc ool always room for learning get school bitch!!!!

and attention every one the is an emergency theres a giant "jaz kat" sized possum ruling the earth and ambers front yard so ne one with a shot gun for miles kill it man its foaming at the mouth and like about to like bust a nut its all pissed and growling n shit it wasnt the tasty lil morsles in the house her two kittys lol im dieng lol

IM RICK JAMES BIATCH

Words of wisdom: Cocane Is A Hell Of A Drug!!!

Mending the pieces

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 02:19:56 GMT

Ok Amber

i just saw you at drivers training and i also just got ur messages both of them. look ur right i am mad im jealous and hurt. dude do you have ne clue how it feels to be told all those things one time for a year and half and then it ends in the worst way and i didnt react right to it i just shut my mouth and let it happen and had nothing then you come back to me finally and i was so happy and things sounded so good i dont know how you could have just done that i mean you told me so much and then completly betrayed me. and ya know something ur right you won this one you actually got undermy skin no one has ever done that at leats not this bad i just feel like i got played so hard and i didnt deserve it because once again i was gonna be all to you, you had me so close to just ending it. the worst part is that day i told sara that i didnt think we were going ne where and that we should take a break and the you told me thati didnt have a chance to tell you because you cut me real deep and i just reacted in anger. and yes that was really immature. and theres a thousand srys in line from us both but ya know hows about we dont not this time no srys lets just for get it all happend this month in a half was juat a bad dream.

soo i hear you got a new boyfriend eh cool is he good he better be im sure he would be, ur too beautifull for that his name is corey? cool good strong name. job car life eh? awsome that what you need i hope you can get ur life up like that. Rams horn wow finally eh you been waiting and trying for that job since last summer thats awsome. and now ur a driver boy look out road, that thought always scared me lol.
so i hope things go well with you going back home im sure it will ur a much more mature resposible girl now and they see that i know they do. thats ma girl tho the only one who could every make me motivated i hope someday we see eachother on the other side of time and start over and maybee we could make up all the wrongs in our lifes
amber i love you dearly hey guess what im crying wow i guess there still some left eh? i guess lonly is what i need maybee i can get my life together i mean i got nothing to loose now mike and stevo both got jobs that take up the whole weeks between the two of them so theres really no time left for practice but we get along some how.

god if i could take back every letter in every word in every sentance in every paragraph in every essay i said that was wrong to you or that made you feel bad or different i would if i could take back every second of every minuette of every half hour of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year and a half of time that i amde you feel uneasy or insicure i would but most of al if i could have you back in to my arms again for just one min of time and look up so high into your beautifull blue greeen orange universe eyes and here you say i love you i would give up every thing and i hope one day that can happen i love you with every atom that makes me up and i owe my life to you as well because with out ur wisdom, and courage, and responsible ways, and ur smarts and ur class and ur wits and ur beauti and ur smile and ur eyes and ur lips and ur hair oh do i miss the smel of ur hair and the caughed process after words that told me how good it was the smell of vinella that i always smelled even tho it was never there the smell of beans on ur hoodie ur warm cold ass imbrace ur toes ur legs ur ass ur back ur neck ur hands ur finger nails up agains mine ur scar me scar our blood our no longer existing future our no longer exsting kids our no longer existing wedding if i could only make sence if i could only stop crying if i could only say the right thing to make it happen again i will never find a world such as you remember no matter what who im with marrige or girlfriend i will still kiss your lips i will do ne thing for you ok um done i think god IM FUCKING SRY I LOVE YOU I WOULD ASCREAMING IT TO THE WWHOLE WORLD IF IT MENT NE THING TO YOU EVEN IT MENT NOTHING BECAUSE THAT NOTHING WOULD STILL BE SOMETHING TO ME god call me when you get this please bye

ps im sry about earlier im just dead now its finally the end and yes i do wana be friends please god accept that good bye sry it was so long

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 00:58:51 GMT

I HATE LIVEJOURNAL :)

wel i gotta live one now

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 00:02:03 GMT

i got a live journal now and the only reson i have it is because i want to be able to reply in ambers journa yay ok well im out peace